Tonight I was thinking about fandom and queer as folk and a conversation with friends got me thinking abut live journal and strikethrough and moving to IJ and yeah...
10 years ago man.
THAT IS BANANAS!
Where does the time go?
I still love you all. Queer as Folk fandom was one of the highlights of my life. I met lifelong friends there and had so much fun!
After being off for 6 weeks to recover, I am at high anxiety thinking about going back to work. There is going to be a giant mess to clean up. I'm emotionally not feeling up to the challenge at all.
And I'm massively stress eating. And I need to not. Although I haven't gained any weight by the scale, things moved around and shifted, and my new scares are really sensitive, and none of my clothes are comfortably fitting. So I need to lose some weight, not stress eat.
I just needed to let that out somewhere.
I'm not sure in the history of tv or movies or books, that there has ever been a scene that makes me squee as much as the last scene of 308.
Tonight I watched 406, which was a delight. Justin is particularly adorable in this episode. It of course isn't a delight at the end when Vic dies, but the Justin and Brian bits, sheer delight.
I like the counterpoints of Ben and Brian in this episode when their respective partners are excited about Rage, and how they respond to that.
Brian kicking Justin's feet on the couch at Babylon, and drunk!justin, perfection.
The gym scene, adorbs.
I went from this episode back to 308, now that is a fine night of television.
On this morning's rewatch list
when I should actually be getting ready to go to a baseball game - 312.
Call me a wimp, but I totally skipped past all of the ted/emmett parts. I just can't.
Debbie at the orgy is pretty much the best thing ever. bwahahahaha. Although Justin's reactions the morning after are almost as entertaining.
"You better buckle up, for safety." "You ask too many questions." hehe. Brian and Hunter, always entertaining.
Hustler!Justin :) "Fucking teenagers..." *snort*
Oh no! There is a problem with watching this episode, I now immediately want to watch 313. And I can't. Boo.
Also, I have only 2 icons of 312 now. SCREW YOU IJ! :(
Can't stop watching...
So far I've watched 308, 310, 311, 402, 511, 512 and 513. In no particular order. What next?
Comments so far after watching those episodes...
Brian and Justin are still ridiculously pretteh.
I have fits of laughter every time Brian is overly dramatic, which is far more often than I had remembered. Like seriously he can be season 1 Justin level dramatic, and it is hilarious
Melanie really did have the longest pregnancy ever recorded on tv.
Britin is FUCKING HUGE. HUGE. Way bigger than I remembered. And frankly fits Brian's personality just fine by that point in the show. He kept it, right? Just like the rings. Seriously, maybe he bought it for Justin, but then he realized how fabulous it was and even if he didn't need it anymore, why not just keep it anyway, right? Like I don't want that house, I think I love tiny houses, but I'm pretty sure if I already owned that house, I'd be like, this thing is fucking amazing and I could probably get a lot more for it if I fixed it up right? So I might as well...and then boom, I'm living there, cause it is BEAUTIFUL.
Sorry, that was all very random. Clearly I just finished watching 511.
Thoughts while rewatching 513 this evening:
1. I remember when the "Its only time" speech made me so sad. Now it makes me laugh so hard. Omg he is such a drama queen.
2. My only real complaint about the last episode is that aesthetically, I don't love the sex scene.
3. I wouldn't change the ending. Brian in the strongest space he's ever been mentally, is kind of perfect. He really can't dance, but that doesn't stop the last scene from being absolutely gorgeous.
Also, and I've had this thought many times, not just tonight: I'm certain that a few months after Melanie and Lindsay moved to Toronto and marriage became legal in Massachusetts, they had second thoughts about moving to Toronto. I'm certain that since they were already in Toronto, they decided to give it their all. I'm certain that roughly a year later, after realizing they could be much closer to everyone in western Massachusetts, and Melanie could practice law, and that their marriage would still be recognized, they moved to Massachusetts. And they built a beautiful life there.
I think I'm having a mid-life crisis or something.
I seriously should be in bed. This is not 8 years ago and I do not have the stamina to stay up all night playing on IJ and then go to work like an adult in the morning anymore.
On a side note. I don't have nearly enough icons. How did I ever think I had enough??
PS Brian really was a giant schmoop.
Before I leave and probably don't return
for another year
until tomorrow....Bed of Roses
I seriously have no fucking recollection of having written that. Or why I wrote it. Which just makes me feel really old. Oy.
And also, just read this The Good Chinese Daughter
by Xie, which I had never read before I don't think. So good!
I always meant to move my stuff over to AO3, but it always just seemed like too big of a task...